Here I sit on my porch this morning. The sun is out and is warm on my face. There is a slight cool breeze. I'm not sure of the temperature since our barometer broke, but it feels nice. My wind chimes are tingling and bonging in the breeze. My cats are surrounding me on the porch. They are just looking around and enjoying the free outside (we call it cat TV).
I start back at work tomorrow and all of the stresses and pressures and responsibilities will begin again once that alarm goes off. And yet, here I am sitting. The birds are chirping in the background and I can hear the traffic over on Nissan Drive. I can hear all the hustle and bustle but I'm not part of it. I feel kind of detached from the world, as if I'm not part of it. I've got a little patch of warmth and a wonderful back seat to the world right now. His world. All of it belongs to Him. It's slow and quiet enough for me to feel that strongly right now. Kind of makes me never want to leave my porch.
Of course if you were here right now you would be philosophical too. There is just something about the morning light and warmth and sereneness that just opens my soul and sends it soaring like a bird.
From where I'm sitting the new year looks nice.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
New Year Resolutions
It’s resolution time and like many others I too have gone over a list (and checked it twice). I’ve given it some thought and have come up with the following New Year Resolutions. Hopefully these will fare better than previous resolutions.1. To lose weight. (I know I say this every year) This year I am including the obligatory eating better and exercising more. I figure if I give it more detail I can accomplish it better.
2. To not be so emotional. This past year I have had a tendency to let things build up until I explode either with anger or with tears. So, I plan on using restraint and prayer and the old stand by of blowing up when no one is around.
3. To improve myself not only physically but mentally as well. I plan on reading more, learning more, and broadening my horizons.
4. To explore more. Not just my local surroundings but other places as well. Either through the internet, books or even visiting other places. There is more to life than my backyard.
5. To be more outgoing, social. I have a tendency to be very shy around new people. My plan is to go against my initial instincts of hiding and to be more open.
6. To complete a crochet/knit project a month. Yes that is one a month. This will help my procrastination.
7. To not let things stand in my way. I also have a tendency to let things go without a fight or with out an argument until it builds up. This will help the anger, I think. If I confront the situation or whatever when it occurs and to not let it stop me in what I want to do. I guess to be braver.
8. To be better with correspondence. I think about calling people or sending notes and because I don’t do it right away I tend to forget. So I plan to be better at that.
9. I plan not to be so worried about the future. By making better choices in the present I can achieve this. Not to be controlled or anxious about things that I can not control. I can not change the past and I can not control the future – I choose to trust. Philippians 4:19 - I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Matthew 6:34 – “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
10. To take more photographs. To stop and take that picture no matter where I am or what I am doing. Go with the first instinct. To try and get a picture published.
What are your resolutions for the new year?
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Whispers
Well the whispers have begun again in our office. The managers are meeting and the tension in the office can be cut with a knife. They are meeting to cut more positions and to lay off more people. Within the last few days my manager has been meeting with our directors and things have been overheard. In all fairness I wish they would just close their doors but they don’t. It kind of makes you think that they don’t care who knows that they are meeting. There is just no empathy for the employees. Anyway, things have been overheard. Things like salary cuts and eliminating positions. Since our boss is the one that seems to be having the most meetings with the directors we are all very worried. Because of the fibro I can feel each and every muscle. Each muscle seems to shout out each concern.
So I was in my office and one of the recently laid off people came to see me. (She is working out the rest of the month). I am comforted at her look at the whole lay off situation. Her faith is very strong. She looks at it as a door closing and that God will open another. I sadly am having trouble looking at it that way. I am trying but emotionally I think I am very raw right now. I’m not so sure that if I were to be laid off I would be able to be as brave or even have that kind of faith.
Do I believe that God loves me? Absolutely. Do I believe that God wants what is best for me? Absolutely. Do I trust Him? Absolutely. I am letting the devil have victory by me stressing about this and beginning to panic? Unfortunately the answer is yes. Those whispers are stronger than the ones coming out of the managers office.
I have been reminded twice today to be strong and have faith. That All things are for His Glory. Now if only I could get that engraved into my little head. I am again reminded of my dream regarding putting on the Armor of God.
I am being tested and I do not think I am doing that well. I am averaging a D right now and what I really want is an A. All I can do is go back to the book and study.
The Armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-20)
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
So I was in my office and one of the recently laid off people came to see me. (She is working out the rest of the month). I am comforted at her look at the whole lay off situation. Her faith is very strong. She looks at it as a door closing and that God will open another. I sadly am having trouble looking at it that way. I am trying but emotionally I think I am very raw right now. I’m not so sure that if I were to be laid off I would be able to be as brave or even have that kind of faith.
Do I believe that God loves me? Absolutely. Do I believe that God wants what is best for me? Absolutely. Do I trust Him? Absolutely. I am letting the devil have victory by me stressing about this and beginning to panic? Unfortunately the answer is yes. Those whispers are stronger than the ones coming out of the managers office.
I have been reminded twice today to be strong and have faith. That All things are for His Glory. Now if only I could get that engraved into my little head. I am again reminded of my dream regarding putting on the Armor of God.
I am being tested and I do not think I am doing that well. I am averaging a D right now and what I really want is an A. All I can do is go back to the book and study.
The Armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-20)
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
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